I had another doctors appointment this morning so I decided to take the whole day off...

I've come to the computer with the urge to blog three or four times now since I got done with the appointment, but nothing seems to be there, ready to come out.

I think its time to admit I'm in another funk

I want back what I never really had ... but my heart remembers what I told myself it was. I know I don't want what it would be now ... but my heart remembers what I convinced myself it would be today.

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1 "I want back what I never really had ... but my heart remembers what I told myself it was. I know I don't want what it would be now ... but my heart remembers what I convinced myself it would be today." OK darling, this paints a broad picture for me, although it almost seems sort of midlife crises like. You are far to young to be second guessing your choices at this juncture of life. Although with all of the death, and turmoil going on I can see why. Is this a broadly painted picture, or something smaller and more specific? I am guessing we all have these moments. What if? What if? What ifs do not matter after a certain point. you either have to make due or change course, and rememebr you only get one ride, so it better be a good one. Well unless you believe in reincarnation, and then you get several. Take it easy and please stop being so damn hard on yourself. You are your worst critic.

Posted by: armywifetoddlermom at September 02, 2007 11:34 PM (GumZ4)

2 What kind of doctor? The kind that I see? I think you need to create a myspace account solely so you can read my blogs.

Posted by: Dorothy at September 03, 2007 11:07 AM (jmeTO)

3 Try standing on your head. At least if the ideas don't shift in your brain, the blood flow will do some interesting things...

Posted by: Ogre at September 05, 2007 09:28 AM (oifEm)

4 Cheer up Cat. Assrot loves ya. :-) Have a nice night!

Posted by: Assrot at September 05, 2007 06:11 PM (ARCEn)

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According to the belief that God (whoever and where ever that being is these days) only gives you can handle ... I'm one resilient muther fucker...

We all saw a funeral coming ... Sunday it will finally arrive. Monday we will go do what the military calls a burial. After that much neglect and selfishness, how could you not see this coming? I'm fairly certain they did and that was precisely why they behaved the way they did. The only thing I have to say about that is: passively allowing a person to die is still actively choosing not to help a person live.

And if that weren't enough ...

My aunt needs surgery on her foot after crushing her heel and she's dealing with a compression fracture of thoracic vertebrae. Its a tough road to go when you've got help - she lives alone and is now homebound, unable to navigate the stairs to her front door.

Have you ever felt like your family was cursed?

(yes, that is rhetorical)

Didn't someone say I deserved a break? Cuz I wanna call in my favor now ...

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I've finally gotten around to it ... a lovely pic of Miss D and her new hubby from their wedding two weeks ago

As you can see, they are a very cute couple :-)

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Lil Bro officially became a homeowner today.

Against all the advice, he bought a home in his new town before ever having spent any time there or learning how he likes his new school/program.

Having a lawn to mow and a whole 3 bedroom house to keep maintained while trying to pursue a PhD and teach ... all at the same time, for the first time? And deal with a girlfriend that has never lived away from her entire extended family before? Um ... No, thank you.

I just may be the only sane person in my family ...

How's THAT for a scary thought?

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Random update... (and thank you, to those that are still checking in on me these days)

When it's too late to apologize. Now what?

I haven't really learned how to interact with and share experiences with people that I have lost a fundamental level of respect for ... not just in the particular situation, but as people. That kind of respect that everyone deserves, just because they are another human being. The kind that goes away when other people decide it isn't worth giving to anyone else.

What do you do when these people are part of your life that you cannot change?

For example:
I have already made it clear that should I ever get married, my dad's wife is strictly prohibited from attending any and all associated functions as well as the wedding itself. I have made a promise that I will have her arrested before I let her take part in something like my wedding.

I can't take that stance with every family member that I think deserves to be buried alive by the very filth they spend their lives producing. But I don't want to go around putting on the nice face while I try not to dry heave from the sheer disgust I feel.

Call me judgey if you will ...
But I also cannot forgive what doesn't seek to be forgiven.

And it's too late to apologize ...

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My blog lapsed ... AGAIN ... but it was for good reason this time ...

I was out of town, in the middle of nowhere, with no where to be but one place... more...

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