I spent most of last night putting a box of pictures in some semblance of chronological order and then into photo albums for better storage...and it was a horrible experience...

I have an entirely new perspective on my awkward early teens and how it came to be that I had no real friends to speak of... and it is even worse than the way I have remembered it all these years.

In my mind, I was just a loner & an outsider trying to break into established cliques as the new kid...

These pics show it was far more than that... I was three times the size most girls my age... both taller and an obese child... skin as pale as milk... clothing meant for women decades older than myself that would have been unattractive and terribly out of fashion for a woman of any age or size... hair without even a remote hint of organization or understanding of good looks... huge ugly glasses that cut into my cheeks when I smiled... If you looked at most of these pics and didn't know a thing more about me, you'd say I was the neighborhood window licker... with a permanent seat on the short bus...

Part of me wants to burn the pictures and another part of me wants to just sit on the floor and cry... the voice in my head is screaming 'why didn't anyone tell me?!?' Children are mean to one another... especially when someone isn't 'normal'... I know first hand...

I suppose I should just be happy that I was an ugly duckling that grew out of it...but some days when I look in the mirror, I still see the duckling...

Being in LA is depressing...

Posted by: Princess Cat at 02:04 PM | Comments (5) | Add Comment
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1 Hey. Look on the bright side. At least you are good looking now. It could have been the opposite. I was always a handsome, ladies man when I was younger. Now I am the fat old ugly duckling with glasses.

Posted by: assrot at July 19, 2005 07:35 AM (ARCEn)

2 .. girls with glasses rock...

Posted by: Eric at July 19, 2005 09:53 AM (YlwMq)

3 Look at te bright side, at least you became hot. Me, I got to stay ugly and stupid. And your comments refuse to remember my personal info. My life is a fucking nightmare. Please kill me.

Posted by: skippystalin at July 19, 2005 10:11 AM (ruCNe)

4 Was it Red Skelton that said he loved going on dates with girls with glasses? You just lean over and hhhhhhhhhh...(presto, fogged up glasses).

Posted by: Ogre at July 19, 2005 10:28 AM (/k+l4)

5 You must post a hot or not photo...let the readers decide....

Posted by: ArmyWifeToddlerMom at July 19, 2005 05:23 PM (glIjR)

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